For this week Kelly gave us the task of finding a monologue that showcases our acting abilities best. To find a monologue I used a website called Aceyouraudition.com, originally i found 3 monologues that I liked and printed them off. Then i read through them properly and picked the one that i thought would suit me the most and would show off my abilities the most. The monologue that i ended up choosing was "And Turning Stay" by Kellie Powell, it is about a student called Amy who wanted a relationship with someone called Mark but it turns out they were just leading her on but she doesn't believe that its true. 

I think Amy is very hurt during this monologue because she feels betrayed by Mark because she thought that he genuinely wanted to be with her. Her emotions are heightened because she is hurt and confused and to control her emotions she needs to let it all out. She is trying to make him say that he feels something for her through this speech. Overall i think she seems strong on the outside but on the inside she is barely keeping it together. She is being a bit aggressive at the star because she is frustrated but as the monologue goes on she goes through a range of emotions such as sadness and anger. Towards the end of the monologue she starts to accept the truth and decides to let him go. Which makes her as a character look strong on the outside but on the inside it was probably really hard for her to say because you can tell that she liked him through all of the emotion .

I think Amy would be a pretty average person who wears casual clothes such as jeans and a normal top. She would wear natural makeup but not too much because her parents are strict and don't want her giving off the wrong impression of herself. She has worn down fingernails because she bites them every time she is nervous and she has emerald green eyes but they have a hint of sadness in them when she is talking to Mark.

The reason i want to play this character is because there is a lot of emotion in the monologue and i want to test myself and see if i can play a range of emotion. I think this will be interesting to do because i normally only play characters with one main emotion throughout.

Monologue
Amy: Don't you dare walk away from me! And don't tell me you're sorry! And don't tell me to forget it, and don't you dare tell me to "let it go." God knows, I'd like to. I wish I could, but I can't! I can't forget that we had something, and you're running away. You're running away! Don't you see, Mark? You're running from what I've searched for all my life! Why, because you're scared? Well, I'm scared too, but you and I - we have something worth fighting for. We could make it work, I'm not saying it would be easy, but I care about you. And I know deep down, under this (Spitting out the word.) bravado, you care about me. And that's what it's all about, Mark, don't you get it? It's the human experience. You can pretend all you want, but you're only lying to yourself. You're denying the simple and wonderful fact that you are emotional, and vulnerable, and alive. Can you honestly stand there and tell me that I mean nothing to you? That everything that happened that night was a lie? That you feel nothing? (AMY is crying or close to it. The following is a painful statement that she makes not to attack or threaten Mark but rather, to allow herself closure with the situation.) I feel sorry for you, Mark. I'll move on. I'll find someone else. I'll be all right, because I will know that I tried. That I did everything I could. But someday you will look back, and you will realise what you threw away. And you will regret it always.